A BRIEF READ AND LISTEN

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My name is William, I am a recovering sinner (Truth be told I am not perfect I still sin, Now following Jesus I try to sin-less). My problem was never drugs or alcohol it was pride, selfishness, flat out dis obedience.  I thought I was a good person doing good things, but in reality i hurt people.  I was chasing wealth and would do anything to get it.  Life along the way had many bumps in the road if you will.  I wanted to see the validation of others, I did not want it I needed it.

In a time when my family was falling apart, my business was

crumbling I came to the end of my rope, feeling Like I had

nothing else to offer the world. To say I was struggling was an

understatement, I was homeless although only a few days, I

knocked a friend of mines door filled with fear I was scared. In

my late 30's and I was a failure... luckily my friend said I could

crash on his couch.  I had less than $ 1000 to my name and

needed to make a car payment ($700) and cell payment ($100).  

There are many other details, that as we go I will share,  but the

point I had reached the end of my rope, I felt like a huge failure,

I felt life had no purpose, I felt that the world would be a better

place without me in it.. In this time I decided to pick up the bible

and crying out to something or someone I was not sure was

even real.  At my darkest point I felt this tug (you are not good enough and you never will be) the  other tug (there is something more) For a few months I struggled with this tug of war, some days I was not certain which would win. 

 

One day I felt this huge prompt to start reading the bible, the

thought was why not nothing else worked. I started to read

about this person Jesus, who honestly when I had nothing to

give or offer I was at my lowest point of life, it may seem weird

but, I felt loved by him, I felt complete, I felt whole, I felt as if I

was good enough.  On 9-10-15 I was able to receive the Lord

Jesus Christ as my personal lord and savior!!  Man o man has

my life changed, 3 or so days after being baptized in the pacific

ocean at La Jolla Shores, I had a   physical release (a pressure

that was on my chest since I was 18 this pressure of guilt, shame,

fear) I was sitting on the couch and my roommate said are you

ok, you seem like you are brighter (not smarter, but as he

explained I had a glow) the darkness was gone and the Light Of Jesus Christ was shinning through me.  I have a  feeling  renewed purpose, a calling if you will, the feeling with confidence that there is something more!

 

To be honest the things that have happened, the people I have me since that date have been incredible to say the least, I HAVE A NEW HOPE. To be honest that is what this website is about, helping YOU experience the HOPE, LOVE GRACE, MERCY of Jesus Christ! And to truly live the fullest live possible!!